Oh my gosh, hiiiii!!!!!
I haven’t seen you in for-ev-er!! How ARE you??? How is everything? What have you been up to? We need to grab lunch and catch up!
Oh you guys, I wish we really could all just grab lunch and catch up! I have missed our little corner of the Internet, so I’m popping in for a few minutes to gab.
I have been absent while preparing for this new addition to my life (watch the video here) and it has been nothing short of exhausting. God really threw me for a big loop with this new project and I can tell you that the hard part is not done yet. I’m feeling about as stretched thin as I ever have with this one. I’ve always considered myself to be a writer, not a speaker, so this is all new territory for me. Absolutely terrifying.
I just keep telling Him, “If You aren’t coming with me, I’m not going.”
I’m like a little girl and my daddy is trying to get me to go on the roller coaster. I trust Him because He’s proven himself trustworthy, but that thing looks really big and scary. Why is it so fast? It goes upside down?! Everyone is screaming on it – are you sure that’s joy? I don’t know about this.
But He said, “I think you’re really gonna like this. It’s okay to be scared. Please just trust Me…I’ll go with you.” And then He stepped into the line, so I did, too. My heart is racing, and my palms are sweaty. I’m a little bit excited and a lot bit nauseous. And yet, He keeps showing up in this, so I will, too. But yep…still scary.
Ty and I are preparing to go to Israel soon, and I’m beyond excited. This is major bucket list stuff right here, you guys. Obviously, I’m in a time in my life when I’m feeling totally upended and unsure. What better place to go than to where all of the people who followed Jesus from the beginning walked when they also felt unqualified, nervous, and yet somehow…called.
One of the books that I’m reading in preparation for my time in Israel is called Blood Brothers. I’m not all the way through it, but I am already so moved by it. It’s a story that explains so much of the conflict between Palestine and Israel, and it’s a really hard but VERY important book.
It’s beautifully written and I feel like I’m a secret member of their little family that is living through this major conflict right along with them. I am just as moved by the beauty they’ve managed to find in the dark as they are.
I don’t get a royalty or anything for recommending it to you…they have no idea who I am. But if you are interested in reading it, click on the picture and it’ll take you right to the link to buy it on Amazon. You won’t regret it.
A lot of you have joined me on the 365 Project for this year. I am LOVING it! It’s fun to see you all interact with each other’s projects, and I’m so glad I’m starting to get to see some of YOUR lives instead of you just seeing mine.
Isn’t it so encouraging to see other people saying things like, “Today was a rough day,” and then seeing that the next day was a fresh new start?
My favorite part of this project is being reminded that everyday life is beautiful, hard, and a treasure. Mom life is lonely sometimes, isn’t it? It doesn’t matter how old your kids are – sometimes it just feels like you’re the only one feeling like this.
You forget that every other new mom is also covered in spit up and poop and is not sleeping just like you.
Or that every other mom with elementary school kids is fighting with their kids about homework and scrambling to get to practices and field trips and spring concerts, too.
Or that every other empty-nester (or almost) is freaking out about whether or not they did a good job all those years and is feeling about of control now that they can’t be in charge of all the decisions.
Thank you for being honest in your pictures. There are a lot of places that make life and motherhood seem pretty easy and pretend. Thanks for showing us your victories, your hardships, your messy hair, and your messy lives. It’s so beautiful to stand together and say, “I see you, sister. Me, too.” I’m having so much fun doing this project with you!
Now that I’m back, I make no promises to be here three times a week like I used to…I’m jumping on a roller coaster and I don’t know what’s gonna happen.
BUT…I love this little place, and I do promise to get back here to teach you some of what my roller coaster looks like and where it’s taking me! And hopefully some of my traveling brings me to see some of you in person so I can really catch up with you and give you an honest-to-goodness hug like I always wish I could!